One of those days.

Ever have one of those days when it seems the sun will never shine?

I'm having one.

Ever have one of those days when it seems like nothing you do is right?

I'm having one.

Ever have one of those days when you are trying to figure out how to purchase groceries?

I'm having one.

Ever have one of those days when you know your supposed to be trusting God for the necessities, but can't seem to find the trust?

I'm having one.

Ever have one of those days when you cry every time the kids walk out of the room, and then put on the magic happy face when they walk back in it?

I'm having one.

Ever have one of those days when you know you did everything you were supposed to, but you still can't figure out how to make ends meet?

I'm having one.

Oh. Today.  I don't like today.  I don't like feeling this way.  I just want to trust God.  But even more, I don't want to be here again.  I know I did what I was supposed to.  Its days like these that I wish I had a job, or even still sold Premier Designs (though I know that I simply dont have the time or the inclination to deal with all the paperwork anymore).  I'm trying to trust God.  I'm trying to remember all the times He has come through before.... just in time.  

Jesus be the center
Be my source be my light Jesus
Jesus be the center
Be my song Jesus

Be the fire in my heart
Be the wind in my sails
Be the reason that I live

Jesus Jesus
Jesus be my vision
Be my help
Be my guide Jesus

(Michael Frye)