How He loves!

Mastering transition requires a willingness to identify and let go of exhausted structures and toxic relationships. This clears the way for growth and discovery, and connects you to the deeper currents of the flow of your intended life. That life is fashioned by design rather than default. It is rooted in an atmosphere of acceptance, nurturance, patience, and guidance. It facilitates forward movement and momentum.


Dr. Mark Chironna
 
Im realizing all the junk from when i was a teen is still holding me back. I never felt pretty enough, good enough, talented enough... blah blah blaggghhhh. But I was reminded today that I am to look at myself as Christ sees me.
He sees me as a beautiful women.  A Great mom.  A talented worship leader.  He sees me as the beautiful worthy creation He made. 
 
I will no longer all my past self-perceptions hold me back.  I will no longer allow the past to hinder my future.  I will NO LONGER walk in fear of man.  I will NO LONGER walk in feelings of inadequecies.  I will walk in HIs love.  His image.  His righteousness.  I will walk in HIM!!!! 
 
He has made me, molded me, shaped me, sculpted me, loved me, grew me, called me, equipped me.  HE.  Not I.  Not those who I let make me feel inadequate.  Not the people who I compared my talent to, my face to, my dress to, my hair to.  He alone. 
 
Have you encountered the love of God???  Do you know how He sees you??
 
Give you a hint...... HE LOOOOOVVVEEESSS YOU!  Seriously and completely unashamedly in love with YOU.  Just the way you are.  He made you and He loves you.
 
Wow.  That love and that feeling of knowing that He thinks I am good enough is freeing.  I am free to persue things I might not of persued before.  Transition?  BRING IT ON!  Im ready to walk forward in Him.  I ready to go where He sends, to do what He has called us to do, no matter where it is!!

I Have a Job!

"I have a job."

"Gotta go to work now."

Those are to phrases I havent said in a few years! :o)  But I am proud to say I can say them now! 

My "official" title?

(I chose my title.)

FRONT DESK CHICK

Yup.  Thats me!  I am proud to say that I am now the front desk chick at my church, Faith Alive Community Church.  Its only a few hours a week... and Madi comes with me.  She sits with me (I have a HUGE desk) and does her school work, and then goes out and rides her scooter, or plays soccer in the huge yard, or plays on the play ground equiptment.  She also waters the flowers around the church and helps with any odd jobs that people may ask of her.  She is lovin' it!  I spend my time answering the phones, writing out cards for birthdays, sickness, loss, and thank you cards to visitors.  I also get to make up all the cute "Thank you for visiting" Gift bags! 

I LOVE doing stuff like that!!

I also help do fundraisers for our mission we support in Nicaragua.  I have been having a blast doing all the brainstorming for ideas!!  I have to admit... I came up with some crazy ones... but there were definitly some gems in there too.

On a different note... Madi is doing very well in school.  She is finished with English and Social Studies.  She has 1 small project to complete in Geography, and 5 small chapters to do in Science.  We arent sure yet what all is left in Math, but she is slowly plugging along!

We did hgave to up her dose of her ADHD meds becuase we were starting to see more anxiety, more frustrations, more interuppting, and fidgeting.  She starts the new dose tomorrow, so we will see how that is working. 
When Madi first come to us, she had SEVERE allergies.  Good diet and a cleanly environment seemed to really help to curb those allergies, but this year they seem to be back more than the last 2 years.  We have gotten a some benadryl for her but I am hoping to get a script for zyrtec.  I only want to give her the meds when she needs them.  Her biggest complaint has been itchy eyes... so I think I may also go to the drug store and see about getting some eye drops and see if we can avoid any more meds.

Im also trying to find someone in our town/area who sells local honey.  I have heard that local honey can really help eliminate allergies.  Have any of you tried that??

For me... Im going to the chiropractor on Friday... Im hoping to releave some of this pain in my back and hips.  This chiropractor has experience helping RA sufferes get relief!  Im excited... loL!!!

We are also back on the "trying to concieve" band wagon.  I have lost a good bit of weight, and I know that will help things.  I am also taking chaste tree extract to help my body make more progestorone.

Mike is really hoping to find a new job.  But we are super thankful that he has the one he does.  It is steady and he has no chance of losing it unless he doesnt show up or comes in late a bunch of times.  He just needs something else.  Something that is challenging, and more importantly... fufilling. 

:o)  Oh... and its GORGEOUS out.... again!!  I am loving spending all our free time outside.  Our electric bill is going to next to nothing this month... we hardly ever are inside to turn lights on!! We just light the citronella candles and tiki torches and play games, or sit by a fire.  Its awesome.  I am truly loving our yard!!